Essay: Dragon Phoenix Twins by Natasha Devalia

Natasha Devalia shares an essay from her WIP memoir, titled The Gift, about her journey of becoming a mother of multiples, and then getting pregnant again and miscarrying, all while living across the world.

We’ve parted at many airports, my mum and I. This time it was Chengdu. With her help, we were reinstalled in our Chengdu home as a family, and finally, she was on her way back to hers, to see Dad in Zambia. As always, the entire day of the goodbye was an emotional one for her, her face puffy and wet, eyes red. She never held back her tears. 

And also, as usual, I didn’t say much. I held my emotions inside and waved strongly. I turned away from her as she walked through the security gates, and only when she was gone did I allow the tears to come.